Friday, July 17, 2009
Really touching speech.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
For one more time.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
New Year's Obstacle.
Kambing.
Hahaha. itu aja deh makiannya.. Rada gondok juga sih, tapi ini yang namanya hidup. kalo ga ada swing nya ga seru. ada diatas ada dibawah. yang penting tetep semangat. Kalo soal kuliah mah, cuma ada satu kalimat :
I should go on time. No matter what it takes.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Galau
Tapi saya rasa tidak ada salahnya
Sekedar berkeluh kesah dan mencurahkan sedikit kegundahan tentang nya.
Kadang hidup menunutut kedewasaan yang diatas batas usia kita.
Menuntut kematangan berfikir dan bertindak yang diluar jangkauan kita.
Itu semua jelas tidak mudah.
Pada kenyataannya ini jelas tak semudah seperti yang para dewasa tuturkan dalam nasehat-nasehatnya.
Konon, kebijaksanaan bersikap lahir dari suatu keprihatinan.
Katanya, kita harus arif dalam menyikapi proses kehidupan.
Tapi terkadang, keimanan hanya muncul pada saat ada rasa ketakutan dan kegundahan semata.
Ini memalukan. Tapi saya pun melakukan.
Manusia hanya mencari Tuhan nya disaat sulit. Saat hidup sudah terjepit.
Sering kali hidup menuntut sesuatu diatas kemampuan kita,
Tapi tak apa.
Kalau tidak begitu, bukan hidup namanya.
Menurut saya, ini adalah kontemplasi seni berfikir, bersikap dan bertindak.
Ketakutan,
Kegalauan,
Kegelisahan,
Pasti ada.
Tapi saya percaya,
Tuhan pasti akan beri jawaban.
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ditulis atas nama kumpulan kegundahan seorang pria muda,
Jakarta 30 desember 2008.
Monday, November 10, 2008
November 7th.
Friday, November 7th 2008.
It’s already almost 12 in the middle of the night. The day has almost changed into Saturday.
I am on my feet walking alone from Margonda Residences on Jalan Margonda Raya to FEUI. Do you know what does it takes to walk alone in the middle of the night (23:58) at UI Campus Depok ? With those criminal scenes occurred lately on my campus; including rape and homicide, it takes Guts.
What a day. I had a long, tiring, and somehow quite weird 24 hours. I knew that today, November 7th , is my birthday. But it’s not a big deal for me.
For me, there’s nothing special. No birthday cake; since I’m already 19. No early morning call; except from my beloved mother. And of course, no surprise party; I found it boring.
The thing that so special for me is the thing I did alongside on my birthday for someone else. Besides me, today, there are several friends of mine who also celebrate a birthday on this particular date. One of those friend, is seems like rather special for me. And I dedicated myself to celebrate her birthday even more special than I celebrating my own birthday. I wish a joy, cheers, and full happiness for her.
I am being the road warrior today. I drove my cousin’s tiny-but-loyal Hyundai Atoz. Radio is the only way to killing the silence along the way.
Two strawberry cheese cakes.
A long drive : Cempaka Putih – Kelapa Gading – Jatibening – Depok – Wijaya – Depok.
A typically lavish sweet seventeenth birthday bash of a teenage girl.
And last but not least. The only way I celebrate my own birthday:
A glass of cheap 2005 Australian Shiraz.
Happy Birthday ! I wish you will have a wonderful life journey ahead. Enjoy your birthday, girl. And just enjoy every moment of being a seventeen. ;)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
A Quality "Me Time".
Last Friday, after i put my exam paper on the examiner's desk, i walked outside the classroom with a deep breath wondering "will i survive this semester ?". Exhausted by a rigorous full week exams, i realized that i totally need a getaway. I started out by coaching a tee ball baseball team on Turnamen Pelajar at the afternoon. This time, the payoff was above average for me. I earned almost a hundred thousand rupiah in only about two hours. Then, at the evening, i went to European Movie Festival, watched a Turkish movie with Agis at Erasmus Huis. I found it really interesting. Typically watching movies at a movie festival; free ticket, hard seats, small-but-intimate auditorium, and of course, standing applause at the end of the movie. The unique experience that you will never get at 21 Cineplex, for sure.
It is still not enough yet. On Sunday, i am being informed that my high school team will join a local high school tournament, and i was assigned to handle a team. Which means, another getaway for a whole week. ;P. I spent almost of my days this week by woke up a bit late, went to the ballpark coaching a game at the afternoon, and end up in plaza senayan or grand indonesia looking for books and movies. For me, it was just wonderful. Spending lot of time alone, which my ex-girlfriend called as a quality "me time". Scootering aroung the bustling city of Jakarta, struggling with the rush-hour traffic jam during a evening pouring rain. Tired ? Hell yes. Enjoy ? Definitely.
For me, there's nothing wrong with watching a movie alone. Enjoying a cup of coffee while grasp some J.Co Donuts at the corner of the store. Spending hours go-around Kinokuniya looking for books. It's fine to be alone; for a little while. Taking a short break of your routines and enjoy myself.
Although today i feel that i suffering for colds, it's just fine. Physically exhausted, but mentally fresh. I am looking forward for tomorrow schedule. Entrepreneurship class in the morning, commitee meeting after that, followed by my high school's softball team Final game in the afternoon, and hopefully will end up with few glasses of fine-and-cheap red wine. ;D
Spend times alone and enjoy yourself, generate a better understanding about yourself.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
What I Just Thought.
I will no longer talking about her speech on this blog post. A point that I emphasized from her speech for myself is the common sense of family. How she define the word “Family”, as a sacred word of human being. How important the family is for her. She put all of her efforts to improve and taken care of not only her family, but also her society. The real meaning of “Giving Back” to the community we lived in. The point is the reality that she found in American middle class workers’ real life.
Those things just scramble my mind. I go deeper on defining the real meaning of “success”. I’ve been dreaming to be a successful entrepreneur for years. In the last few years, I’ve been so compassionate to the thing that people called as wealthy. Thinking about having my own company, being my own boss, make some money and earn some wealth. Besides also keep my idealism to create new working field to the others. I think it is just great idea of an 18-years old boy. Nothing’s wrong with my dream. Even some people think that, this is a brilliant idea of a future successful person. In the last few years, I am mostly thinking and dreaming to be a successful young entrepreneur. Sounds glamorous and glorious isn’t it ? Young, Independent, and Wealthy. What a great combination of success.
Then suddenly after I watched her speech, my dream and idealism about those glorious and glamorous life goals are just changed. She changed the way I define the word of success. She opened my eyes for the real thing that I should looking for in my life.
I am a second year student in one of the best economics faculty in the country. And fortunately enrolled as a student in one of the best university in the region. I studied Accounting, Economics, Business, Management, etc. and majoring in Economics and Business. Seems like I already started to undergo the path of my life plan. I think that I already have a clear vision about my life and my future. Until suddenly this afternoon, I decided to add a fundamental aspect of my life plan. Like planning to grow a tree, maybe I already imagine how the leaves and the branches would be. But I somehow forgot to think and imagine how the roots would like. I made a great planning of growing the leaves and branches of my tree, with ignoring the basic concept of the roots. The thing that will remains, whatever the tree is going to be.
I just realized the ultimate goal of my life is to be a full family man. To be a serving son for my parents, a nice brother for my siblings, a good husband for my wife and finally to be a great father for my child. I should be a real family man. There are tough consequences to be a successful person, in terms of career and business. It requires you to give your full efforts, focus, time and energy to deal with it. I knew it for sure, since I was a little child. Since my father is an entrepreneur. But the thing is, I no longer think that being such successful person in terms of business and career as my life goal.
I don’t want to be somewhere else during my business trip, by the time my son or daughter get sick and has to see the doctor at the hospital. I don’t want to let my driver to drive my son and daughter to school every morning, just because i am still sleeping after overnight work. I don’t want to say happy birthday to my children and wife by a phone call just because I have to travel to somewhere around the globe to attend company meetings. I don’t want someone asking where I am on the day of my parent funeral, just because I have to sign a business deal with my buyers on the other continent. I want to be the person that could be alongside my parents at the last time of their life, before they pass away.I want to do all those family matters by my self. I would like to prove them that I am deserve to be called as a son, husband, and father, by those persons I love most in my life.