I am sick of it

I think, recently (about last six months) I am in the lowest part of my life. Besides those life’s shits that I have explain on my last blog post, my health also has worsen for few recent months. Started with the itchy things on my skins, that doctor said it was because of some kinds of fungi. After that itchy accident, I pays a lot better attention to my body and room cleanness. ;P haha.. not stop there, two weeks ago, I decided to undergone the surgery for my Verruca Plantaris. Although the surgery itself is not that painful, the recovery process is take quite sometimes. Since it is located in the center of my heels. As we know that the heels is the important part of our feet that support our body weight. It’s been two weeks now after that minor surgery, but the wound still not healed, yet.

While I am still having trouble to put my shoes on and walk normally, I suffering another disease. Holy shit. This time the problem is on my mouth. My girlfriend said it was because I am having too big mouth, and have to control every single word that go out of it. ;0 at first, I think it just a usual ulcer. Hence it size is too big and it is spread out at several point of my mouth, I started wondering and sure that there is something wrong about this ulcer. I decided to see the doctor this morning and finally found out that I am suffering for Candida Infection (Moniliasis / Candidiasis). Once again, holy shit. I am not finish dealing with my feet recovery, then I have to struggle with this painful and discomforting infection on my mouth.

About this mouth problem, there is one special fact that I figured out. Based on my own research on wikipedia and also from my doctor’s explanation, the main reasons of that moniliasis are, of course, the recent weak body immune system and also the psychological factor that saying I am stressed. The doctor suggests me to consume more vegetables and fruits to strengthen my immunity. But the fun fact for me is, I have been trying to be strong and always saying to my self and to the other that I am strong enough to face all these life reality. I always tries to be never distracted by my not good family condition. I think my psychology is strong enough to face and not being stressed by this family matters. But this moniliasis proves that my body shows the sign that I am stressed. Wow. ;( 

I really screwed up lately. This afternoon, few friends comment on me with asking what the hell wrong with me. Looking up my messy hair, unshaved mustache, and that big ulcer on my lips. I look really fucked up.

Whatever happen to me, and no matter how harsh it was, God definitely always do have plan for me. So, just be patient and see, what will happen next

A New Start-Up Life.

It’s been almost a year since my last blog post. Finally, I decided to create a new blog on Blogger. Since I think my friendster blog is not competent anymore. ;P

I think, I will re post some of my blog posts from my friendster blog to this new blog. So, people who still want to read it, should not have to go there.

Many things happen, so many things changed since August 2007, now is June 2008. It’s almost a year. I went through a very challenging year. I finally finished my first year of my university study, the thing that is not easy at all. And now I am studying for the short semester, retaking one subject that I failed on my first semester. And yes, you guys are true, that is Mathematics. Even though I am not that good at math, but I learned to love it, lately. My overall GPA is just 2.92, which is still less that 3. Maybe that’s all about my academic life. Oh yeah, one additional information about my campus life, is that I am joining the faculty’s student body as a external affairs staff.

Academic life is just a part of my whole life. My relationship with my girlfriend, Anisa, goes well. With some little turbulence on it, sometimes. But it is still great. We have been going for about eight months yet. And I hope, both of us could enjoy it and get the essences of our relationship.

As I told earlier, I went through many things this year that related to many life’s aspects of mine. Good, bad. Great, worst. Personality, morality, ability, attitude, behavior, spiritual, family matters and so on. You name it.

The biggest challenge of my recent life is coming from my family. There are several obstacles and burdens on it. My family condition is not that good lately. Especially about the relationship between my parents. But, that’s the fact. The reality of life. I have to be stronger to face the reality of life. The more harsh it be, the more stronger I will be. Never run away, just face it. You will never walk alone, like the Liverpool FC’s tagline said. The essence about family is harmony and joy. If there is no more joy and harmony on it, maybe you just better stop it. I mean, in your life, you have to be able to enjoy every single thing and moment of your life. Because what we are pursuing in life is the happiness. Every person has their full rights to be happy. With this recent circumstance on my family condition, I have to be ready to face every single possibility. Including divorce. There’s obligation for me to take care of my mother, brother and sister if something bad happen in the near future. the only thing in my mind now is, even though I never ever think of my parents’ divorce, but I should be ready and prepared if it happen. But once again, I never ever imagine or think about this catastrophic possibility.

The first thing first. Now, the most important thing for me to do is take a very good care of my own self, in order to take care the rest of my family members. I should have a clear vision of my own future, and I have to stick with it. Never let anything screw it up. Never ever. I have my life goal, dreams and plan. And I have to stick with it, whatever it takes.

You could classify this blog post as whatever you like, whether you think it is a kind of satire, drama, personal story telling or whatever. But one thing, this is a reality of life.